my dear dear kayinaat..

today i did something interesting.. i wrote a small bit on my dear blog. n then i started to visit my thoughts as captured a yr ago around d same time, n d year before, n so on.. n it turned out to b a very insightful experience.. to revisit one's exact thoughts n feelings can truly help understand oneself.. for me this was the high point of d day.. a lil walk thru my thoughts thru the last coupla yrs.. and for this, i am so thankful for kayinaat.. glad i embraced kayinaat, who's been with me like a close friend.. a companion thru days n weeks n years now.. good n bad.. high n low.. happy n sad.. all there..

it was an almost spiritual experience for me.. i dunno if i make any sense to anyone.. but i do to myself.. n dats what counts.. n i feel better.

am reminded of harry potter, in which a diary wrote back.. although the situation is not comparable in d least, the thot crossed my mind, n brot a smile to my lips..

thanks kayinaat... for being there..

low bug..

am livin quite a maverick existance, if u will.. n livin in the moment.. flowing in the direction the breeze takes me in.. all within the framework i got to follow to pay my bills.. n hv bn happy being this way.. not to say i don't desire the conventional happiness, but i hv come to accept this, n with joy. as i believe i shd live the life i got happily, even if i don't have a 'happy' (as defined by many) life.. n hv bn doin dat well.. with joy, without complaints. n yet have been a tad low lately.. just a tad.. a lil down.. but not out.