long time..

it's indeed been a very long gap this time round..
last i visited and updated my blog was in march. was struggling the past few months - and though i have always believed in growing and evolving as a person, in becoming wiser and stronger, and a more mature and better person with every passing day of life, this time round, i have personally not been able to live up to my belief.
i feel i have taken a few steps back the last few months, and though i realize it, and therefore feel worse about the fact that i am buckling under the pressure, the fact is that i realize, resolve but that's where it stops. i easily flare up, i easily snap, i easily get nasty, i easily get upset and agitated - and i feel that is because the pressure from all sides is closing upon me - job, home, people...
but then, what am i compromising - the person that i am! i don't want to do that.
i want to be happy and confident and carefree and bindaas!
i really do.
i hope i find the path, and i learn not to take everything so seriously, that i live each day for the beauty of living, and i spend each moment as beautifully as i can, valuing it as it passes me by.
help me god, help me not just realize and resolve, help me try and succeed.

*insha-allah*

blessed

a life to live

things to do
stuff to take care of

things to manage
things that control

people to care for
and people who care

good days
and lame ones

joy and pain
laughs and tears

trials and peace

and life goes on..

twisting and turning
meandering like a river headed to sea

and takes me along

and wot have i done at the end of it

must live my life fully
with a smile

coz i am blessed
with a life to live