am i a slow learner or what..?

one good thing about pouring my thoughts onto kayinaat is that it is therapeutic. another is that on that odd day when I start reading from kayinaat, reading old posts makes for interesting reading.:) it is like a trip down memory lane, where I recall what inspired me to write a certain piece at a certain time. it mostly gives me renewed strength and inspires me to look at the good in any situation. it makes me realize that I have come a long way, even if there is still a long way to go. hence, it makes for a positive learning experience.

today, however, revisiting an old post was more like a rap for me. it was like, gosh.. have I not grown in all this time? have I not learned my lesson? come on..!
http://kayinaat.blogspot.in/2013/01/ill-be-fine.html

well, well.. to not beat myself up too much, similar thoughts had already helped me make peace. although, hopefully next time I would stay calm through the storm, rather than giving my best and then calming the storm.

moreover, if something does not work out despite my trying my best, another lesson I remind myself of is 'God's will, not mine.' Isn't it that all along the way..! people cross our paths at different stages of our lives, so we get an opportunity to add value to each other's lives. and when we have played the roles we were meant to, we get that nudge and that confirmation to move on.

there are very few, rare cases where we get that opportunity again and again. a very dear friend of many years who recently visited me is one such pure soul. we have been a part of each other's lives in a significant way more times than one. each time has been timely and memorable and meaningful. I thank kayinaat for this blessing.

another beautiful reminder here is.. my higher power may not give me everything I want, but certainly blesses me with everything I need.

and so there is always some sense to all the madness. which is why life is beautiful, inspite of it all.