al-anon step 2

"came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."

this was the subject of yesterday's meeting. i hoped to listen to others' sharings and stories to get hope. and it was that and a lot more. i think while speaking, one by one, almost everyone went back to their toughest times and how they have emerged from those, and how their faith strengthened over time. i have the faith (it has gone through ups and downs), but it's always been there rock solid. because above everything else, i am extremely grateful and thankful for everything that is right and good in my life. i know i am blessed. but the one thing that i feel needs tweaking is the ability to tune that connection so i can start listening.. today i question almost every step of mine, require validation for almost everything, feel i need to get some direction, need a sign.. i don't seem to get it. i listen to my inner voice, but i doubt it. am sure it's all there already. i just need to calm myself enough to tune in and start hearing - and trusting - my higher power and myself.