one day at a time @ work

for the last four months now, a lot became increasingly difficult around me. the adverse situations became more challenging and the good situations turned hostile. one amongst these was the unfriendly work situation that dawned upon me in the garb of a good opportunity. i started reacting to it - first to improve things to make them reasonable, and finally i wanted out of it (still do). it was beginning to feel like the grip of a harry potter style magic vine that crushes its victim. the more one resists, the faster and closer gets the vicious grip of the vine. it was indeed seeming to go that way.. i made several attempts to change things, move towards a win-win, a sustainable situation.. but i guess, the positive force i was trying to apply wasn't enough to negate the negativity and inertia around. well, at least i tried. i tried to be reasonable and gave it my best. but i realized that if nothing's going to change, i will need to let good sense prevail and walk away from the situation. and so i decided it had to stop. but u see, didn't i mention, these evil vines don't quite let u go that easy - especially when the dark forces are in full attendance. so as it happens, the vine is latching on to me, trying to drag things, trying to ensure i am made to stay as long as possible, and more. the powers-that-be misusing every rule in the book and every trick in the trade. well, they can slow things down, but they can't stop 'em. after all, i have made up my mind after much deliberation. and just arriving at my decision and announcing it has brought me such a sense of relief. just shows the 'burden' i was under.

so well, i have begun to try to relax, not be overwhelmed by the lack of cooperation or pressures. and that is quite liberating and empowering.

following the mantra - one day at a time.

it's that time of the week

i plan to go for my third al-anon meeting today. am a newcomer and am slowly finding my way..baby steps.. need to keep going back!