to let go and let things be..

lately, i have felt a lack of harmony around me - indifference and even insensitivity, leading me to feel pain and hurt, maybe because of unmet expectations from those closest to me. i have felt uncared for. and i have felt unsupported and unable to pursue my health, wellness, work and practice. it brought me to a low i thought i had left behind a while ago. and this is also when i thought i had managed to conquer the demon of expectations. well, apparently not from everyone.

i reckon we're human. we all have our weaknesses. and maybe, they are not all really weaknesses. is it all that wrong to expect those closest to you to care a little? maybe not. and hence, from trying and feeling let down, to feeling bad about not wanting to try anymore to protect myself from further hurt, today I can sense a new feeling dawning on me, slowly but surely ... acceptance.

when one tries too hard to fix something, and it doesn't work, maybe it's time to quit trying for a bit. to just observe and accept. to go inward and be more with oneself. to simply let go, and let things be.

i know from experience that acceptance and letting go are two powerful tools towards attaining sanity and maintaining serenity. maybe it's time to simply be kind and gentle with myself. time to wear my oxygen mask. 

i know i have the potential to do more for my health, wellness, work. i know i have it in me to continue to expand my life. and i know that i have the faith that i WILL find the resources i need to do more and be more. so cheers to that!

to a beautiful kayinaat, full of promise..