And I did it again.. vanished for an entire year!

the good thing, though, is that I am here now.

i have believed in the power of journalling for a long time now.

i have also experienced that reading my own posts at a later time, after months, and sometimes years, is a bit insightful, and definitely therapeutic.

today, as I looked up kayinaat, I realized reading old posts also gives me a peek into the troughs and peaks of my life, and how i overcame those to come back to base. But what was more of a revelation was a very clear pattern. i could see that I seem to write when I am either being challenged or am delighted. this is at least a pattern over the last two to three years at least. again, that’s allright. just an observation.

after all, kayinaat is my loved space that i come home to from time to time. it’s like returning to a loving friend, or a parent, who is totally accepting of me - just as I am. i can ‘simply be’ when I’m here. simply write whatever pours through. a sentence or a paragraph or more. it doesn’t matter. and most importantly, when I don’t write, it’s because there is so much comfort, that there is just no need to fill the silence. that is precious.

today I just want to give kayinaat a hug. and receive a loving hug right back as kayinaat holds me. just that. nothing more needs to be said.

much love in my heart for the universe today. ❤️ i feel happy. period.