clarity and peace

when the water gets murky, everything gets coloured by it.

if our environment becomes coloured by undercurrents, for whatever reasons, it lends meaning to everything that transpires. and then comes the analysis-paralysis, which in turn starts impacting the inner state of peace. and life state. and joy.

i feel this now.

so, to regain my peace and reclaim my joy, it's time for me to go inwards. step back. watch things in a detached way, like an observer. accept what is. and, completely let go of expectations.

a part of that effort is me being here right now, enveloped in the comfort of kayinaat, who doesn't judge, who listens patiently as i pour my thoughts and feelings, who is ever so loving and accepting.

well, that last phrase made me smile. it reminded me of ootpatang, my adorable canine child. on days like this, i walk around the block, find ootu, and give him a hug, even if he is more interested in jumping or lazing. and he always manages to make me smile.

speaking of which, a canine child did make me smile this evening. this stray baby is injured and dealing with a difficult condition. i happened to find him just this week. meek little thing was initially surprised that i was not a threat, and actually might be friendly. now he meets me joyfully, without any complaints about his physical discomfort. these canines teach us so much. always.